In a Nutshell

I woke up in the early morning hours feeling as though I was choking. I sat up in my bed and coughed repeatedly, attempting to dislodge whatever I believed at the time was in my throat. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I would experience this frequently in my youth. I always feel terrified when I have these nightmares and somatic complaints. I'm not sure what is causing the recurrence of this problem. Years ago I had discussed this very issue with a psychotherapist friend of mine. She mentioned to me that what I was experiencing was a result of repressed thoughts that I wanted to express to someone. Back then that person was my dad. Once I expressed my feelings to him, the nightmares receded back from whence they came. However, here I am now with an old situation presenting itself again. I am not sure what is nourishing this feeling. I have also been waking up with a feeling of death. I definitely feel that my unconscious is in over-drive right now. I'm not sure what to attribute this all to. I went to a wake on Sunday evening so perhaps that has something to do with it.

I really enjoyed my day (with the exception of the aforementioned). I spent time at the library and attended a PTA meeting. I sat outside in my backyard drinking tea and reading "Still the Mind" by Alan Watts. The weather was amazing. I am really looking forward to summer.